A life on the stage : a memoir /
by Jacob Adler ; translated, edited, and with commentary by Lulla Rosenfeld ; with an intruction by Stella Adler.
1st ed.
New York : Knopf, 1999.
xxiv, 403 p. : ill. ; 25 cm.
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New York : Knopf, 1999.
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Serialized 1916 to 1919 in the Yiddish newspaper Di Ṿarhayṭ.
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Includes bibliographical references and index.
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First Chapter


My life . . . what was it? To what can it be likened?

It is gone now, the thousand-headed monster whose din comes to me nightly through the thin wall of my dressing room -- the monster that for forty years has dared me out into the arena, and whose noise, breathing, odor, have since boyhood unnerved me and sent a fever through my blood. It has departed, leaving only darkness and silence.

The applause is over. The curtain has come down for the last time, and to make sure it will not rise again, a wall of asbestos has descended. The theater is dark . . . only a single glare from the middle of the parquet throws a ghostly light over the loges, balcony, gallery. Something cold and infinitely menacing comes from those silent corners.

I stand in a darkened theater, a sixty-year-old actor with a face stripped of its makeup -- that face with the dark circles under the eyes and the two long creases in the cheeks.

My life . . . what was it? To what can I liken it?

Once more I have won the battle. Once more the thousand-headed creature has been tamed, conquered. Once more it has laughed, wept, sobbed, shouted my name over and over until I showed myself, and the shouts turned into a sea of joyous faces and a hailstorm of applause. So many times this has happened, yet how one still longs for it, thirsts for it! And should the applause one night grow cooler by a thousandth, should I see one face without joy, one pair of hands not wildly applauding, I fall straightaway into melancholia, feel I am no longer needed, and turn away from the ungrateful public, asking myself bitterly what it is they want of me, the murderer, and what more I can give them.

Night after night it has been so. Forty years now it has been so.

My life . . . what was it? To what can I liken it? This time my own tragedy, not a tragedy I have learned. This time, my own Faust .

"Life's but a walking shadow," says Shakespeare's Macbeth, "a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more." A dark thought for every man, but darker still for the actor who has his true existence only in his everlasting duel with the public. For if every man's life is no more than a play, the actor's life is no more than a play within the play.

And what of all the rest? All that took place behind the scenes when he was a man like any other? Was all that, too, a show, an illusion, a tale "full of sound and fury, signifying nothing"?

What was it all for, then, and for what was it needed? What is it that flames up in me each night, dies down, and takes fire again on the morrow? What is it in them that catches that fire and burns with it so fiercely, with such joy?

No, my Shakespeare . . . For me, the Jew, your answer is not enough. My life has been no walking shadow, no brief moment. When I measure it with the measure of my feelings, it has been an eternity, an ocean.

Shall I recross the ocean to the far side?

Shall I revisit the graves of my old joys, my old woes?

Among those graves will I find my answer?

Something About My Family

It is a holiday, a festive gathering with many happy people around a great table. Out of that whole great joyous scene comes a face more full of light, more radiant, than all the shining candles. A woman beautiful as a picture, with beautiful, intelligent eyes and a wonderful smile. This is my mother, Hessye. At her side I see a man, short of stature, not at all handsome, but sympathetic and full of magnetism, for his face is clever, his personality lively and interesting. This is my father, Feivel (Pavel) Abramovich Adler.

Another memory -- a less happy one. My parents are walking in the street, and I am walking behind them. No -- I am not walking. I am being carried in the arms of our meshuris , Elie. (Whether my father was rich at that time and could afford such a person, or whether his business required it, is lost now in the sea of forgetfulness. Enough that out of that sea has appeared the figure of Elie, our meshuris .)

This notable little procession is making its way from our house on Ekaterina Street to the great Richelefskaya. Suddenly we hear screams from a house surrounded by a crowd. The screams are coming from the cellar. From the short answers of the onlookers my parents learn that a pair of horses have run over a child, a little boy, and killed him.

I hear this from my high seat in Elie's arms. Elie takes a notion to go into the cellar and see the dead child. I am carried into the cellar, see a bloodied little body, and hear the agonized shrieks of the family. We leave the cellar, and Elie and my parents do not stop warning me. "You see, Yankele, how careful you must be? And if you do not look after yourself, you too will be run over by horses and killed."

For a long time after that I lived in dread of all horses. Nothing, no dog, no devil, no corpse, terrified me as much as a harmless stationary horse. And whenever I passed that cellar on the way to the Richelefskaya I ran for my life, for it seemed to me I still heard the shrieks of that family overtaken by catastrophe.

In those days poor people moved often. I remember best a certain house in Market Street because of its unusually lively, populous courtyard. Although I was a ben yochid -- an only son -- I had no lack of playmates in this court, where a whole colony of little Jews and little Christians all played together.

Apparently, as time went on I lost my fear of horses, for one day I saw a horse and wagon on the street, the carter some distance off, not thinking of his cart. Instantly I sprang into the wagon, grabbed the reins, and was off down the street at a mad gallop.

Why did I do such a thing? First of all, the ride itself -- where is the little boy who could resist such a ride? Second -- and this was the core of it -- my desire (and there was a badness in it too) to play a trick on the carter, get the better of him. "Aha!" I said to myself. "You are not watching your cart? Now I have you!" I brought down the reins with all my might, the wagon tore down the street, and all this gave me terrific pleasure -- a pleasure even stronger when I looked back and saw the carter running after me and shouting, a whole streetful of people beside him. The incident shows my wildness and recklessness as a child.

In the course of my life I have lived through three pogroms, the first of them in the years of my childhood in Odessa. As it happened, the synagogue and the Greek church were on the same street, and every year at Passover the Greeks beat up the Jews and robbed them.

This first "little pogrom" began with a fearful alarm. Screams filled the air. Jews ran by with torn bloody faces, a murderous mob after them. We were saved only because we lived in the house of Rollya the Greek. I watched it all in horror with my parents and others at the courtyard gate.

That year (it must have been about 1862), the Greeks committed much robbery in Odessa. Jews were mauled and maimed, and one very poor man who sold lemons was beaten to death on the street.

For a long, long time the death of that very poor man was whispered and remembered in our home.

As it has now probably become clear, I was born into a simple, poor, Orthodox home. True, it was in the great city of Odessa, we mingled with Christians, and all around us Russian was spoken. Still, it was a Jewish home, and except for the Russian newspapers, Yiddish was our language.

Our family became more observant and pious when my grandfather, Reb Avremele Fridkus Adler, came to live with us. A handsome old Jew, always in a long coat, always with a book in his hand, he filled the house with cleanliness, belief, and peace. Not only my parents but the whole family revered him.

With my father often away on business and my mother occupied with household tasks and other cares, it was he who took me to school, taught me how to read, how to pray, how to make a blessing. He loved me very much, and sometimes when I had been up to mischief, it was the zayde who saved me some well-deserved blows. "Don't beat the child!" he would say. And he would take me away from my angry, excited father.

My grandmother was a fine old Yidene . She had a shop where she sold remnants, but on Friday night she would lock up, come home with the keys around her waist, and make preparations for the Sabbath. Bathed and dressed in their best, she and my mother would set the heavy brass candlesticks on both sides of the great round table, and then stand together and bless the candles. And it was a picture for an artist to see these two beautiful women, one old, the other still young and blooming, each with a hand shielding her face, standing over the little tongues of flame and whispering something -- something so quiet and secret that not a word could I hear, only a sigh and sometimes a tear that dropped to the pure white tablecloth.

With my grandmother I lived well. I spent hours rummaging about in her remnant shop, and as I grew older I was useful to her, too. Every year in August a fair was held in the suburb of Peresyp, and the old lady went there for her galanteries : scarves, kerchiefs, gloves, and other trifles of that kind. I would go with her to the fair and mark down her purchases and expenses. The whole great open-air tumult, the crowds, the chaffering, the delicious things to eat -- all this delighted my childish heart, and in all the world I could imagine nothing finer than the fair at Peresyp.

In spite of our poverty, our house was a happy one. There were joyful holidays, lusty songs around the table, shining radiant faces.

The house was always full of people. On Friday night my father would come home from the synagogue bringing with him a poor man, a maggid , or perhaps a Jew from the Land of Israel. And he and this new friend would sit talking, talking, all through the night. The conversations in our house always came back to the plight of the Jew in Russia. On this subject my father needed no one's opinion. He was not a Jew who "hid behind the oven," but a man who read the Russian papers and took an interest in the great questions of the day.

My father, like others in Odessa, dealt in wheat. He sometimes speculated, sometimes acted as a broker, but he seldom had luck either way. His intellectual gifts and his understanding of politics consoled him for his business failures. Men, and women too, liked to hear him talk, and perhaps because of this he sat more often in strange houses than in his own.

His nature was carefree, and he lived a carefree life. My mother's existence was very different. A daughter of the wealthy Halperins of Berdichev, her youth had held a tragic chapter. My father was not the first man she had married. She had divorced her first husband, and in so doing, lost the right to her child, a boy named Ephraim. If I were to make a guess I would say she met my father when some business matter took him to Berdichev, fell in love with him, and for his sake left her husband and her child.

She was a beautiful woman, tall, erect, with a wonderful but rather sad smile. She was well educated, read the Russian novels as well as the Yiddish novels becoming popular at this time. Fastidious, artistic, even theatrical, she was, most of all, outspoken. When my father brought home a new visitor she would immediately measure him with her great clever eyes and find out all his faults and failings. When in my bachelor days I began to associate with singers and actors my mother took alarm.

"Why are their faces so yellow?" she asked when I brought home these night birds of mine. "Why are their clothes so bedraggled? And where are their mustaches? They are actors? Clowns? And with this do they hope to earn bread for a wife?"

Poor Mother! Small pleasure she got from me, and not much more from my father. We were poor, pressed at times for the smallest sums. He was popular, out with his friends. She sat alone. More than once in her lonely moments I saw her brush away a silent tear.

In every family there is a king. In our family it was not my clever father, not my revered grandfather, but Aaron Trachtenberg, the renowned Uncle Arke who "kinged it" in Cambara's house on Market Street. He was the richest man in our family, but it was not in his wealth that his importance lay. He was a real Mohican, the patriarch, magnate, and ruler of us all.

I remember him as a fine man, tall, powerfully built, with a voice to command, eyes that ordered, and an open hand -- in both meanings of the word! He was the judge and arbiter of the whole family. The whole world knew this. A daughter to marry and no dowry? Uncle Arke was called in. A father fallen into debt? A grandfather struck by misfortune? Everyone came to him, he took out his bundle, and all was made right. He was especially sought after in quarrels between man and wife, bride and groom. The women always brought him their problems. He settled all their differences, and his decision was final. If not -- a whack ! He stood for no nonsense.

A very interesting type, this Uncle Arke, and anyone interested in my life and career should make his acquaintance, for he is related to a figure I created on the stage, a figure that more than any other decided the course of my theatrical life. I refer to Jacob Gordin's Yiddish King Lear .

Some of you may recall my appearance in this play. My height and build were by nature like his. With the art of makeup, I made my face into his. For as soon as Gordin read me the play the image of Uncle Arke swam up from the depths of my consciousness.

Copyright © 1999 Jacob Adler. All rights reserved.

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Appeared in Publishers Weekly on 1999-11-01:
Jacob Adler (1855-1926) was not just a lion of the Yiddish theater, he was acclaimed as one of the great actors of his time. His exuberant memoirÄfirst published in a Yiddish newspaper between 1916 and 1925, and now translated into English for the first time by his granddaughterÄtells the extraordinary saga of a restless individualist who, as an actor, director and producer, left an indelible mark on his native Odessa, then on London (where he moved in 1883), and finally on New York's Lower East Side, where he helped make Yiddish theater a bracing, realist antidote to Broadway's superficialities. Illustrated with marvelous photographs, these reminiscences are peppered with real-life encounters worthy of the plays in which Adler acted. He survived three pogroms; in one, rioters smashed his house and stole the family's nest egg. His three wives were all actresses; in her touching introduction, Stella AdlerÄlegendary acting teacher and Group Theater founding memberÄpays homage to her father and her mother, renowned tragedienne Sara Adler (his third wife). A wild, dissipated young man, Adler saved himself through immersion in the theater. Interwoven with Rosenfeld's illuminating commentary, Adler's performances fairly leap off the page: as a proud Shylock in Shakespeare's Merchant of Venice; as Uriel d'Acosta, Jewish champion of free thought and Spinoza's teacher. Adler's portrayal of a capricious old fiddler in Zelig Itzik will resonate with fans of Fiddler on the Roof. This memorable document offers a heady plunge into the golden age of Yiddish theater, a living force that survived poverty, persecution and exile. (Nov.) Copyright 1999 Cahners Business Information.
Appeared in Library Journal on 1999-10-15:
Adler (1855-1926), probably the greatest and most popular of Yiddish theater actors, is remembered for his Shylock, Yiddish King Lear, and numerous roles in plays by his friend Jacob Gordin. Melodrama and musicals dominated the Yiddish theater; Adler's lifelong quest was to introduce more serious, tragic themes. He began publishing his memoirs in the Yiddish newspaper Die Varheit from 1916 to 1919 and then resumed in 1925, though he never completed the task. Rosenfeld, Adler's granddaughter and the author of Bright Star of Exile: Jacob Adler and the Yiddish Theater (revised as Yiddish Theatre and Jacob P. Adler, Sure Seller, Inc., 1988) has translated his never-before-reprinted writings and provided useful contextual notes and photographs. The memoirs are more detailed for Adler's early years as an itinerant player in Ukrainian Yiddish theater and, after Tsar Alexander III banned it in 1883, his years in London; the treatment of his New York career is disappointingly sketchy and must be supplemented by Rosenfeld's study or by David Lifson's The Yiddish Theatre in America (1965, o.p.). Recommended for research collections in American theater and Ukrainian history and for general American Jewish history collections.ÄRobert W. Melton, Univ. of Kansas, Lawrence Copyright 1999 Cahners Business Information.
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Table of Contents
Acknowledgmentsp. xi
Introductionp. xiii
A Yiddish Theater? How Did It Happen?p. xxi
Prologuep. 3
Something About My Familyp. 5
Growing Up in Odessap. 11
Russian Theater in the Years of My Youthp. 24
Odessa Nightsp. 29
Rosenberg: The Great Friend of My Youthp. 38
"For Fatherland and Tsar!" The War of 1877p. 42
The Odessa Attractions: Pleasure and Malaisep. 54
Hopes, Plans, and Dreamsp. 71
Rosenberg: Actor and Impresariop. 75
The Great Night: An Echo of My Youthp. 87
My Uncle's Verdictp. 91
Sonya Oberlander, My Theater Magnetp. 98
Strategic Retreat: We Play in Khersonp. 104
News of Goldfaden and Our Guilty Longingsp. 110
Goldfaden's Courtp. 115
Kishinev Revelsp. 119
Winter in Yelizavetgrad--My Downfallp. 137
The Mirror on the Wallp. 146
Yiddish Theater in the Provintzp. 155
The Troupe Breaks Up: Destiny Takes a Handp. 168
Lithuania: Stardom and Starvationp. 180
Rosenberg's Theater in Nezhinp. 188
My First Great Role: Uriel Acostap. 199
Glory--And the Aftermathp. 210
Zhitomer--Odessa--The Final Blowp. 215
Our Last Piece of Russian Earthp. 225
Our Theater in Exilep. 231
The Surprising London "Dramatic Clubs"p. 239
How We Played in Londonp. 243
Our London Paradise, and How the Serpent Camep. 248
What We Learned in Londonp. 256
The Great New Club on Prince's Streetp. 265
The Ladder of Wordsp. 271
Schiller: An Epoch in Our Theaterp. 280
From Joy to Deepest Nightp. 284
A Storm in Whitechapelp. 291
The Tragedy in Prince's Streetp. 296
Last Days in Londonp. 302
Chicago Days--The Troupe Splitsp. 306
New York: I Fail in The Odessa Beggar but Triumph as Moishele Soldatp. 310
My Great Moment Comes--I Meet Jacob Gordinp. 316
"Classicismus"p. 329
How I Saw the Role of Shylock and How I Played Itp. 341
My Last Sight of Rosenbergp. 351
Shmendrick, My Mephistophelesp. 365
Last Appearancesp. 372
Indexp. 387
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